It's hurts everyday. And eventually the depression catches up. I try to think happy thoughts of all the times with you until my anger crushes that and the tears come rolling in. This is the torment I feel everyday because of my husband keeping me away from my daughter and keeping her away from me. Trying to find her a new mommy when mommy is already right here. Countless battles in and out of the court room and still no divorce still no baby girl.