My wife has walked out on me. I suffer from PTSD World Trade Center related I am a first responder. I really put her through hell with substance abuse and legal troubles along with PTSD. I have come a long way with professional help and getting my life back together. She left just when everything started to be good again for me and I could show her what she means to me. She will not let me back in her life but she has not divorced me. Don't know what to do she is very distant and cold.